Well...we've been here for 275 days now. Life on the mission field has not really been what I thought it would be. So many expectations that have fallen through and so many surprises that have opened my eyes even wider.
This first year my family and I are in language training. We go to language classes every day for 4 hours a day. By the time our classes end each day, our brains are fried. Blah! We can't think in English or Spanish. We just feel kind of numb.
I feel like I needed to write some today because of the way I've been feeling. Since we've been here I've felt like I've been on an emotional roller coaster. I fight days where I feel like I absolutely HATE it here and want to move back home. And then other days where I'm so thankful and blessed that the Lord is using us here. What a chaotic battle of the mind!! Some say, "just go back home, you've lasted longer than I would have." Other say, "stick it out, you can do it." But in reality, it's not so much about finishing or leaving, it's ALL about being obedient to our King, our Lord and Savior. It's about honoring Him and furthering His Kingdom. If it were up to us, we probably wouldn't have even came. But the fact is that He placed a calling on our life and we want to be obedient.
If you are reading this and facing problems and rough and tough situations in life...stick it out for the reason that He called you to do it. Know that He will walk with you through it. If He's called you to do it, He will be with you through ALL of it. Stand strong and fight the good fight.
I have to always remind myself...this small little time is NOTHING compared to eternity. Remember that some are headed for an eternity apart from Christ and apart from ALL that's good and great. It's worth it!! Jesus...it's all for you!!!!
